Is up really the only way?

I've had a long, hard week. It's been emotionally taxing. It's Saturday. I've had the best day with my babies. Hours at the mall since it rained all day. I made this great dinner and got to have some personal time because the kids went to bed early. And still I'm stuck in my own head.

I've recently had an encounter with a rare breed......Sometimes I am sure that there are people in this world that you are meant to interact with for the benefit of knowing who you are! This man is so unique. He is like a soul I've met before. Someone I've known since childhood, as if an old friend that I could share my deepest innards with. He has struck a passion inside of me that I haven't felt in so long I was unsure if it even existed anymore. As a younger child I use to think that these fairy tales were exaggerations. I knew that in real life there were a select few who were lucky enough to find someone so right for them that people who didn't even know them could look at them and see they were perfect for each other. I have witnessed a few couples where this holds true. And their lives aren't fairy tales. They aren't all rainbows and butterflies but they are still perfect.
I don't believe that the world brings someone into your life just to tease you with them and to yank them away! I haven't had many times in my life where I've had gut feelings about things but when I have, I have never been wrong. It's hard to live knowing something but not being able to do anything about it! Everyone I've talked to thinks I'm crazy. They think that I should see the "obvious signs" and move past any 'fairy tale' ideas I'm holding onto. But just like those other people who knew that they had something better than a fairy tale I know in my deepest heart of hearts that there is something more meant for me.

I'm so happy about things that I feel and know but yet so unsure. I know what I need to be doing. I know the steps I should be taking to get to where I want to be - ultimately to just be happier with me and let the universe take over my worries for a bit! And somehow, I am not able to let go.....I'm like a corpse gripping the treasure map in the fabled treasure hunt! I can't seem to let go of things....and if I'm not careful I'll end up like the corpse; allowing someone else to take from me what I know so true.