And the weeks drone on

Well it seems that the blog is pretty well up to date. I never made this blog with the intent of just being pessimistic. It just so seems that this is a low point in my life and as much as I enjoy talking with people I would rather not have to only talk about my divorce or how the kids are coping, etc.

I've been trying to find out what to do with myself. School? Work? Kids in school? Daycare? What to do in my free time when I don't have the kids? I've been dating. And let me tell you, dating is a terrible thing! I don't know how people end up getting married! I'll be honest. I'm pretty picky. I enjoy people's company but I don't want to have to listen to mouth-breathers who have just nothing to talk about other than like, "I saw a tractor on the interstate!" I mean really?! The one great thing I've found about dating is that there are some funny stories that come out of it. None will be mentioned on here because it's just too funny but if you know me and talk to me I'm sure you've heard some.

The issue I've found with dating is that I'm not a good serial dater. I don't take pleasure in going out with a different person every other day I have free. I don't enjoy having to try to get to know all these different people whom I have no intention of dating seriously! And I've had terrible luck meeting anyone I'd rather go on a second date with. When I first started dating, I was still watching the Bachelorette and I felt like I was on that sort of dating show! That I had all these people to go out with and get to know and it was interesting but exhausting all at the same time.

I've found that I do better in a taking my time with someone one on one kind of way. Of course I've met some people I'd go out with again but it always turns out that I could actually like them and they feel the same but then decide not to date me! Well this gets really old. There aren't many people around here that I feel are worth my time and energy and when I find someone I think is worth all that it ends up not going how I thought it might. It's frustrating. I am tired of being someone that people like, want to date, want to hang out with but don't want to get serious with.
My dad says that I need to get right with myself and what I have in my life. I agree that I'm not 100% content with where I am in life right now. I am not happy to have to start over, no matter how great I think it is for me. I just want to be happy. Whatever that means.